Well? I’ve officially entered into a new decade. So far, it feels okay. I can’t say that I’ve achieved anything that I had wanted to by this age, but I’m okay with that. It’s taken me a long time to come to terms with that, but finding that peace is also incredibly liberating.
I thought my twenties would be a time to embrace freedom of newly found adulthood. But no, they ended up being absorbed by severe depression. I’ll admit, I was surprised I made it to 30. But I survived it, I think in part to Calvin and Hobbes, The X-Files, D&D, and ice cream. Seriously, all four of those things can do wonders.
Just before I turned 30, I got diagnosed with PCOS and found out why I felt batshit crazy and I was able to get treatment and start to heal. I remember thinking, FINALLY, I can get my life back. I can do BIG THINGS! I can have BIG PLANS! And then shortly after my birthday, I got bit by a dog and went into the hospital with the risk of losing my finger and developing osteomyelitis. Luckily, I didn’t lose my finger, nor did the infection get in my bone marrow.
However, this event kicked off what would become a decade focused on illness, from years of PCOS “treatments” that made most everything so much worse (except the depression, oddly enough), to having my digestive system and my hair completely damaged by antibiotics, to a new found gluten allergy, plus the onset of severe adult allergies, and more. Fun times all around…weee!
I did not like this ride much, thank you very much. Please let me off. But, this too, I survived, or rather have been surviving since it’s not over. What helped through all of that was (and still is) my lovable cat Ruki, an addiction to more TV shows than I care to admit, and yep, more ice cream.
And now I’m entering a new decade…
I have no idea what the focus of this decade will be. If I get my wish, it would be focused on getting healthy and having massive amounts of fun. Yes, massive! I’m not making BIG PLANS or anything like that. Life is so messy and plans often have to be changed or altered or kiboshed all together. So, I’m trying to enjoy the small moments in between the mess if I can. I’m also trying my best to spend more time doing what I enjoy and less time being crippled by what I can’t do. And that’s that. :)
My birthday wish for you is that you take some time to enjoy the small moments too. They often get overlooked or forgotten, but there is something magical in them too.
Here, I’ll leave you with my favorite Zoe Keating song, “Optimist.” Have a fabulous day!