Well, hello there. It’s been forever, I know. In fact, I just got a renewal notice for the hosting of this blog and had to really think that over. I rarely use it. It is known. But perhaps I will give it this one last try before putting the kibosh on it.
I think the problem is that by the time I get home from work, the last place I want to be is back online. Also, I tend to have nothing to say. Most of my day is spent sharing other people’s words. My own voice gets lost in that.
But, well, here we are. So, hello. How’s it going? Fabulous, I hope.
My last post was about turning 40 and realizing I’d not accomplished much, at least in respect to the idea that I had things I wanted to accomplish by now. And here we are a few months later. So let me tell you what’s changed. And what hasn’t.
Allergies: Oh yes, still got ’em. Happily though, my shots schedule shifted from weekly to month in January and that’s made all the difference in the world. Spring was still difficult thanks to the pollen tsunami we got hit with, but no migraines…no sinus infections…no eyes swollen shut…hell yeah to leaving all that behind. Sure, I had itchy eyes and my ears got weird a few times, but that was all way more manageable. So I’ll take it.
RSI: Oh, lucky me. I have some repetitive strain injury going on now. Manageable though. I got a little geeked out talking to the hand specialist on all the science of it. And my game plan is to treat it like cross training. And basically, don’t get attached to any one kind of tech.
Running (or rather there lack of): I haven’t gotten back into a regular running schedule yet. Trying though. I was limping a bit this spring thanks to my feet hating me, but stretches seem to be helping. Now I just have to get my tush off the couch and hit the road! Uh huh…maybe after this next episode of whatever it was I was watching. :P
Diet: Um. Yeah… It really hasn’t been going all that well. My PCOS is colliding with me on that I think. My body just doesn’t want to release the extra poundage. My quest to lose 100 lbs continues…
Ruki: She’s fine. Being weird by stealing all my food all the time now. And she tends to park herself on the couch behind my head these days, which is a little odd since her foot kicks my head. Our battle over my carpets continues…ugh.
Books: Things I’ve read recently that you should be reading too: Hex, Captain Marvel, and False Hearts. (Ooh, sorry, just realized two of those aren’t out yet. Well, make a note for later.)
Audiobooks: Ones where listening is an extra treat: The Providence of Fire and A Darker Shade of Magic.
Recipe to try: Banana Nut Porridge. Mmm.
Okay, now are we caught up? Yes? Good. On to the where things are going now part we go.
I’ve been feeling pretty stuck lately. So I decided to work with a life coach for a few weeks just to get some perspective. I found the process interesting. I was forced to come up with answers to questions where had nothing to say. Or at least I didn’t think that I did. What came out of it is that I’m lacking passion in my life. There’s nothing that’s currently making my heart sing. And that’s a problem for me.
Sure, I still have things I’m interested in. But for the past few years, I’ve been so focused on illness and trying to get better that there wasn’t room for anything else. Somewhere along the way, I lost what had been driving me. And now I find that I’m bored easily. The fact that I have an attention span of a toddler sure isn’t helping here.
Now I have to start trying new things to see if I can find whatever it is that will wake me up again. I will dabble, I guess. I will also revisit those things that were my passion before to see if there isn’t new life to be had there. I’m going to try to share how this journey goes here. We’ll see how it goes.
I’ve also been thinking that part of this journey will include trying to face some of my fears. Maybe overcoming them can trigger unexpected interests. Although, it’s highly unlikely that you will ever see me here:
OMG, now I’m hyperventilating over both of those. Whew. Egad. Well, not those fears, but maybe something like trying to speak in public better. But well now I’m turning green at the idea. Okay then… let’s just move on from that for now.
Anyway, journey to find my passion ahead. Must go find brown bag to breathe into now. Hoo boy.